“God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before Him.”

Psalms 18.20

I’ve been thinking a lot about this journey of following Jesus. I think the journey is really about offering my heart completely to Him.

It happens to all of us in life. Somewhere along the way (it’s hard to pinpoint), our lives become shattered, our dreams are broken, our hearts end up in pieces. I think many of us have the moment where we stop and say, “This is not how it was supposed to be.”

We live the rest of our lives fractured and broken.

One of my favorite songs that speaks to this condition of our hearts is the Goo Goo Dolls hit “Iris.”

And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I couldn’t have said it better myself, “Everything’s made to be broken.” Yet in those dark, still, alone moments I often wonder what it would be like to be whole again - to be put back together.

God tells me that He will make my life complete (whole) when I can lay all the pieces down before Him; which is really about surrender. I don’t realize it often, but sometimes I walk by the mirror and catch a glimpse of myself tightly clutching handfuls of puzzle pieces. I continue to pick up things that are not mine and then try to fit them into the puzzle. Sometimes I force them in. Sometimes I try to cut them to the right shape so that they fit. The whole time I’m secretly hoping that God doesn’t notice. Every time, God has to take me back to that piece and ask me to let go.

He wants my heart. All of it. He has not given me permission to hold onto any piece of it. And only in laying all those broken pieces before Him, will my heart become whole/complete once again. The way it was intended to be. My journey is moving closer to complete.

What pieces are in your hands right now? What are you holding onto that is not yours?

Where are you in this journey? Are you moving closer to complete?

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